Carolina On My Mind

Not actually, well sort of. But that is not the main subject of my post this evening. But after reading my brothers' posts here and here, I was touched. It is true I will miss North Carolina a great deal, but every chapter is just a new beginning.

I guess what I mean to say is that I feel I am beginning a new chapter in my life. This past semester has been one of learning to be a bit more outgoing and trusting. One of having fun and gaining experiences. But now I begin a more personal adventure. One of self growth, spiritually and mentally. There is a great deal that I want to learn, take in and soak up all at once, but alas I know it can only come in time. And today has helped with the beginning of this adventure. Well....several experiences have helped.

To start, my brother and I got to read the scriptures together the other night. It felt amazing to have that in my home. I want to thank my parents for making scripture study a habit in your home; it has been an example to me. And though I know I did not always take advantage of it as much as a I should have, it definitely brought a different spirit into the home.

Today church was magnificent. Not that it isn't always, but I think we all have those Sundays that just stand out to us above all the others. Despite being rather tired in sacrament, I was able to enjoy some wonderful talks. Normally I tend to have one favorite each Sunday, but today each of them just hit me and made me think. Then Sunday school and Relief Society passed and each brought more to me than I thought. Suddenly topics I had never fully appreciated became greatly important and I wanted to learn and take action immediately. I guess you could say it was one of those Sundays. Those moments that hit you, and how you react will define you.

I hope that all of you find those moments in your life. Listen closely at church, find something, and take it to heart. But don't stop there, act on it, better yourself. Because what else do we have in this life? We have our families and the knowledge we gain through schooling, personal and spirituality. In the end, what purpose do we have if we aren't growing? Someone once said, you are either progressing or digressing, there is no constant. So which one are you at?

I think I'm going to stop blogging about my daily life for awhile. I feel it is becoming more of a job than an enjoyment. I'm going to go back to what is on my mind from day to day instead. But you might not hear from me for awhile on here. If you want to keep up with me, please give me a call. Use your phone for what they were originally meant to do, or send me a letter. Call me "old fashioned" but I prefer a phone call or letter to a text or facebook message any day. I'm not great at keeping up with schedules, so give me a call in your free time. I promise to call back if I for some reason miss your call.

Have a great week!
And learn something new =]
Meg

My Mind, My Mind, My Mind

Once again I find myself in the silence of the night here in Rexburg, where it is actually cold outside in August. But that is not relative. I find myself wondering where I want to be. Lately I have been rather uncertain of things. But maybe that is the answer I have been looking for all along.

Looking toward the future, I am about to start on my third semester of college, though that still seems rather young, that was the semester for my sister that she met her future husband. She did not know that at the time, but still it makes me stop and think.

I feel nowhere close to being ready to be married, not to say I wouldn't love it, but I know I have much to learn before I am ready. And honestly, as much as I want to want to be in a relationship, I have no desire to be in one, not right now anyway. I still have much to learn about myself before I can start learning about another.

I guess that is where the answers lie. I have some things I want to accomplish for myself first. I have a great deal of learning to do that I must start now if I ever expect to become the woman I want to be, the one deserving of some incredible man out there.

I know I can care deeply about those close to me, but I need to start even closer. I need to focus on those that truly matter, and then maybe one day I will let myself care deeply for another. Until then, I must learn. Let us face it, the only thing we can take to heaven in the knowledge we gain in this life, right? Might as well take advantage of that now.

Knowledge,
it empowers us all.
Meg